you're old before your time
and you do not need me

*lungs dried with tobacco*

you're almost thirty and you think you're accomplished

*finger stains on your books*

there's an ashtray on your desk
- You always forget to empty it
- Or maybe you like to watch the pile growing with a sick kind of pleasure

*in your pocket a pack of King Edwards and keys*

sometimes you think about getting married
- you'll have to try it one day -
not today

*moisturizer for a seared sagging face*

you cling to the illusion that this is just the beginning

[not all choices have been made and
there are so many things out there awaiting to provide you with the thrill of "first time"
- I should know]

that you're still young and still

*herbal solutions to prevent loss of hair*

you are blase and alone
and you're tired of smoking

and you do not need me