this is the time when I lie
this is the day when I die

I have searched for a love
that had never existed
and what I have found
was never permitted

but I couldn’t go back
to what was there before
so I had to give up
my spirit and soul

I told him that we
couldn’t be just best friends
‘coz I needed his silence
to confirm that love ends

I lied him again
‘coz he’ll always remain
my best friend in spirit
even though I’m in pain

but I couldn’t keep saying
that he makes me feel good
when we both knew that’s bullshit
- I would lie if I would

in our spirits we’re friends
‘till the end of the world
but my heart doesn’t know
that great meaningless word

I had to pretend
that I’m stronger today
and I don’t need his friendship
so I pushed him away...

he will never forgive me
for denying his help
I will never forget him
I can’t lie to myself

what I can is to break
my own will and my soul
I will lock in my pride
I’ll disappear in a hole

‘coz today was the time when I lied
‘coz today was the day when I died